Thursday, October 05, 2006
Come Home to the Heart
Good Evening!
I am loving this moment of sitting down with a tea, and allowing myself to rest. The past few days have been silly-busy, and I am noticing the impact of all this DOING. Not only am I tired, but I feel disconnected, manic, as if I've injected caffeine or some form of speed. I notice, too, that I have been making far too much effort lately. For what? Exactly what is it that I am trying to prove by meeting deadlines and checking tasks off my to do list? What happened to effortlessness, to the beautiful, synchronistic moments that occur naturally, one to the next, when I allow my actions to unfold from my heart, from the stillness that is my ultimate truth? Instead of doing, why am I not being? I feel peaceful and fulfilled when I am present. I am unable to tolerate a frantic pace for long these days, and I suppose I can be grateful for this.
One of my most interesting 'regulars' came in to the cafe today, a woman I shall name Flora. Flora is 86 and is an avid reader of philosophy and spirituality. She wears unusual handmade hats and is never without a pair of dark sunglasses, even during the winter months. Her order is always the same; a liquorice peppermint tea with a side of milk and a ginger cookie. What I find most interesting about Flora is her uncanny ability to pick up on exactly what is happening for me and find a quote that will speak directly to this. At first I considered her crazy, bizarre, perhaps even eerie. Now I know that Flora is... well, let's just say that after three years I know to listen to whatever she has to say.
This morning she motioned me over to her table, the large brim of her daisy-patterned hat nearly drooping into her tea. She thrust the usual square of scrap paper at me, then leaned carefully into the back of her chair and folded her hands under her breasts.
The quote today was, of course, perfect for me:
"When speed becomes hurry, that's a poison. The day you stop rushing you will arrive."
-Anthony DeMello
Thanks, Flora. I am going to take Anthony's quote and my own daily idea to heart tonight and get some decent rest.
// posted by Sacred Truth @ 8:53 PM 
