Monday, August 13, 2007
Resisting Change
Everything in our world is in a constant state of flux. The tides shift, the leaves turn colour and fall off the trees, our bodies age, our lives twist and turn in ways we could never have imagined. So why is it that we resist change? Why does change have to feel so uncomfortable at times? Tonight I search for an answer to this question, whilst being aware that the search is futile, the answer unreachable. The only way to be with change is to embrace it. It seems I am moving on in life, moving away from family and friends and into the unknown; a new home, a new job, new friends, new verse to the song in a new cafe. This is frightening and somewhat overwhelming! A huge part of me would like to remain in my comfort zone, to take the "easy" path and stay with what I know, stay with what appears to be secure in a routine that is familiar. However, there is no room for growth in this and my Higher Self knows it, as it urges me onward to exciting opportunities.
When I resist change I feel that I am resisting not just the immediate change before me, but all the things in my life that are changing. I don't want my parents to get older or my body to get softer in all the wrong places. Why can't it still look like it did a few years ago? I don't like all the new buildings that are going up where there used to be green spaces and I can't believe how quickly my friends' children are growing. I want my cat to stay forever my companion instead of going to a new home in the country where he will be happier. And I am starting to understand what people mean when they say that "you always feel the same age inside, even if you look older on the outside."
So, why resist? All my fighting and resisting is not going to stop the world from turning and the sun from setting for another day. I feel calmer and lighter when I take a deep breath and trust in these sometimes overwhelming changes in my life. The flow of this river knows where it is going..... and it gets there, and there, and there, effortlessly and beautifully, when I don't interfere.....
