Thursday, August 16, 2007
Letting Go Of The Past
Why is it that my mind often insists on convincing me that whatever happened in the past is destined to repeat itself? This, I am discovering, seems to be attached to all my fear. I worry about feeling ill when I drink an iced latte because the last time I had one I got a headache. I fear that loving someone intensely and passionately will eventually mean abandonment because this is the direction that all my intimate relationships have taken in the past. I don't take the risk of having fun incase something really nasty happens like it did that time last year when I made what I am labelling a poor decision. So what then, is true today? If I am constantly guarding against repeating what I perceive as past mistakes, then how can I truly live fully, radiantly, like that open flower I spoke of yesterday? Is anything actually happening now, or I am I just dragging old dramas around with me and preventing myself from experiencing the present? And will I not recreate my past fears, as long as I dwell on them and make them real again?
All that arises, passes away. Everything changes. Nothing is the same as it was even a second ago. And anything that may have hurt me in the past can touch me not. I don't need to repeat a lesson learned. So why worry? If worries are based on times gone by then they are nothing more than illusion. My thoughts alone can hurt me. It is but my thoughts I fear.
