Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Community
Why is it so often that the thing we desire is often the one we push away? Is it that we feel we are unworthy of this desire?
Community is something I have been yearning for. A group of people who understand me, who support and love me and are there to remind me of my Truth on those days when I forget. In my heart I long for this connection, and this longing feels ancient. Often I feel disconnected from my fellow humans, and from the pulse that connects everything on this planet. I am hungry for love and belonging yet at the same time I resist it, or at least a part of me does, the part that doesn't trust, the part that has been hurt by others and looks for safety in aloneness, separateness. I see that if I desire community then I must be willing to receive it. It is a practice to open to others and allow love in, and I know that it is truly the work I have come here to do.
I like what Starhawk says:
We are all longing to go home to some place we have never been — a place half-remembered and half-envisioned we can only catch glimpses of from time to time. Community. Somewhere, there are people to whom we can speak with passion without having the words catch in our throats. Somewhere a circle of hands will open to receive us, eyes will light up as we enter, voices will celebrate with us whenever we come into our own power. Community means strength that joins our strength to do the work that needs to be done. Arms to hold us when we falter. A circle of healing. A circle of friends. Someplace where we can be free.
